Sganarelle77

I had a talk with a boy who with a crazy notion. He was convinced the girls who he considered in his league should be with him. He thought wearing a fedora and a trench coat made him mysterious. He didn't wasn't a womanizer, but he felt entitled. He was a product of an up bringing that valued a learned gentleness coupled with traditional masculine ideals He was intimidated by the girls at school but charmed all the "girls" in the chat rooms. He told me the first time he fell for a girl was in preschool, he name was Heather. Even when he didn't understand what "crushing on a girl" meant, Her name was Heather. In Kindergarten, her name was Je

I. The road is long, and it begs to be traveled. My forest home of the high water and snow was a blanket to comfort me; To keep me safe. When my heart was betrayed by it's own foolish mind for the last time, I pulled on my coat and pulled down my hat; Once again I became the Far Traveler. I crossed city, plains and mountains, through snow and sun. I almost fell from icy peaks, chaos metal pounding in my ear; Dragon Flame blazed in our hearts, my traveling companion and me, I will always admire his prowess that kept us safe on that road. In the land of smog, a black coat has no use, In the land of sun, a hat covers the face; I can't rely

A Farmer traveled for days and nights on end He needed new land to sew his seed Despite all his efforts He never was able to keep a crop All he was left with was barren waste This man of the land Worn and broken Poor and tired Allowed his eyes to rest on a sight he could barely believe Fertile land He rushed to the spot and pulled out his best gear He dug his hands deep into the soil, He laid down his seed Properly cared for the land He was so sure he knew exactly what to do He waited so long for something so right He stayed with the land through the night and into the next morning From sunrise to sunset, he watched his litt

My love, my light I could really use you tonight, there's so much space between us, yet you're the closest thing I have to a dream right now. see I've been broken pretty hard, more than a few times. You get scared of dreaming when they all end bad and turn to nightmares My love, my light I could really use you tonight You have all the qualities that I am crazy about, I'm scared of the ones you haven't shown me, but I'm willing to see yours if I can show you mine but I'm scared you won't like what you see I'm afraid you'll eventually not need me the way I need you. My Love, My light, I could really use you tonight I've been used l

still in the same shell still where I was not two years ago breaking hearts getting broken lost along the same road that leads to dead ends and brick walls making all the wrong mistakes when it was convenient, then moving on never cleaning a mess... letting them lie or shove them away, simply not dealing with them anymore I've Run my whole life from one mess to the next potential mess I'll run myself ragged one of these days seems a shame for such a nice guy to give himself such a hard time maybe I'm addicted to sad stories... so much so that I life my life as one an odd thought Tended my own garden for too long again... open up

Not knowing Being on the dark about how you feel about me Love doesn't just go away until it does My heart breaks with every pang of doubt that clouds my mind and rips my soul apart I need to find that confidence in myself I need to see my shrink I need a drink I want a drink I want to get high I don't want to feel I want to crawl into a hole, run and hide away Anything to not deal with how hard this love is Part 2 Love is hard Love isn't free Love I have is a mountain I have a tough climb full of painfully spills and maybe even a broken hearts and bitter chills with the solitude of being told "we can do this, but its not a

I've talked to you everyday since that musty, dank Karaoke bar We've had adventures to nowhere and found ourselves so much closer That feeling that invades us both, or maybe just me, But I have a feeling you're there too Are you and I what I strove for when we started? Were you smitten at the start as I was? and do you share the same Venn Triangles, to you must feel like so many other directions am I more special than the other boys who are infatuated? We've never really used the word friend, at least I haven't I've been fearing both it and its counter part/polar opposite Do you have to have one before the other? Some say you get t

Ye of Dark Disposition Ye of Cold Hearts and Wintery Souls The Time of your Seclusion has come Put on that Mask of Darkness Don that Black Cowl and Crawl into Thy selves That Sun, though Bright and Inviting, is Not for Thee Thy Master Sol hath forsaken Thee, Thy Mistress Luna cares Not Darkness is thy only friend this day Reach out to no others of thy kind Keep thy hands fisted and thine eyes averted Think not of the Children of Light Those who live in Darkness, though seeing that Great Light, turn thine face away That light can do thee No good Nor dost the Light accept thee Darkness is for Thee and that Black Mask of Sorrow

I won't go back to polygonal living A mother I've never seen A lover I'll never touch "I love you" means nothing more than the stroke of eight keys One stroke away from a truer statement "Who are you" I won't go back to existence through Idolization In love with the concept of love Longing for a touch to feel how I want it to feel Forcing a fleshy oval shape the size of my fist into a synthetic cordiform box Loving the idea of a person and the disappointment of an idol revealed as imperfect I won't go back to living through chemicals "I feel better now" he said as he was propped up by a stack of pill jars A puff of smoke pullin

When am I enough? When is what I do good enough? When I feel better about myself? When I don't think I'm a loser? Who said these things? Why do I feel these things? I am myself, and I intend to be myself "How am I not myself?" Why isn't it good enough for them? Why I can't it be good enough for the girls I want to impress? Why did she run? Why didn't she write me back? Why did she reject my offer? What did I do wrong? How could I have shown any more confidence? How could I have been better looking? How could I have impressed her more? "Don't compliment her too much" "Don't show your true feelings" "Don't put your heart on